All I ever wanted was to be a mummy.
From a very early age people used to ask what do you want to be when you're older, I used to always say a mummy.
At the age of 17 I was swept of my feet from, what I thought, was the love of my life. To my parents horror that he had been married before, with 2 children, 11 years older and even worse to my mother not Italian!! But I wouldn't listen and we married when I was 21.
Right away we started trying for a baby, after a year of trying with no luck I was sent for tests to find out why I wasn't having luck. I was never regular from an early age. After lots of prodding they found my left tube didn't work at all but it wasn't all bad and there was hope. Every week I would go to my pharmacist and buy a pregnancy test and get the one line and would break my heart thinking it was never going to happen.
Then a few months later I went back to my GP who wrote me a Prescription to start my period. Went back to the chemist and the pharmacist came out and begged me to do another pregnancy test. I agreed and went home and took the test and to my shock those 2 amazing blue lines appeared, I couldn't believe it. Went back to my GP and was sent for an emergency scan to find out I was 11 days pregnant.
got my wish I was going to be a mummy. I was sick morning, noon and night for 7 months and had the most awful pregnancy but I didn't care. I eventually gave birth to a healthy gorgeous perfect wee boy at 8lbs 5ozs. Not long after James was born our marriage fell apart and we were miserable but I tried my best to keep us together for my son. We led very separate lives and one drunken night I got pregnant 6 years later, I was just about to leave then found out I was going to have another baby.
That again was an awful pregnancy and the day before I was due I woke up with awful pain then 45 minutes later I gave birth to the most perfect little girl in my living room at 7lbs 2oz, with a mop of black hair. 6 months later my hubby walked out as I had post natal depression and he couldn't cope.
So all alone with my two amazing babies, I found the strength to get better after months of counselling.
Three years later I found my soul mate, not only was he perfect for me but became daddy to my 2 children and my parents adore him. We married in 2011. Graeme really wanted us to have a child of our own but I was terrified of post natal depression and that he would leave me, he said I’m not like your ex but I totally understand. I eventually changed my mind and decided why not and in November 2014 had a son of our own at 10lbs 9ozs, and we named him Gio. Graeme and I have always called ourselves Team G&G and now we are Team G&G and mini G. So at last I'm living my happily ever after. I feel so blessed to have had 3 children of my own, I would love another child, but this year I’ll be the big 40 so maybe I should be grateful to have 3 healthy gorgeous children, who are my world.