Good morning mummy as Hamish smiles at me with gorgeous blue eyes,
my heart melts every morning..
I love afternoon feeds, son and I sitting on the couch in the quiet of our home, magical..
My name is Laura and I am a first time mummy and these are just but a few of the lovely experiences I share with my son day to day. There is no hiding that yes in the beginning I found bonding with my son difficult and convinced myself I was not cut out for the job, yes the ‘job’!.
I remember being at Daisy baby Tinies with Hamish and was upset, however being with mummies who understood and are like minded can make a huge difference. What I found truly inspiring was that when I started to talk the majority of the mummies had their own story to tell, it was amazing. The mummies I have met through the Daisy Foundation helped me through a hard and difficult time. The most amazing part was not explaining, sharing and having understanding is great. I remember my friend turned to me and gave me the biggest and best cuddle ever. I soon began to realise that I am not alone, there are so many mummies out there feeling as though they are isolated, you are not alone. At times just being in company alone was good and the girls always encouraged me to go along to the classes and stay and have coffee afterwards.
The support from my Daisy girlfriends was, and continues to be, amazing, although I knew in my heart I needed more help and support. My friend had told me about a local support network for PND in North Lanarkshire and I started to go along once or twice weekly, again having company helped me a lot. Weeks passed and I learned of Bluebell PND Services. I had heard great reviews about the organisation. Bluebell is a truly amazing organisation who have helped me to get back on my feet through professional counselling.
Hamish is now 7 months old and how my journey has changed. I believe in myself and know that I am a good enough mummy and Hamish is a happy, content and loved boy. Yes there are still challenges, but for me it is not a challenge but a chance to learn. I know now that Hamish and I will be learning together for a long time and teaching each other.